Facing Difficulties ‘Some Informative Writing’
Informative Writing :This post draws away from Paranormal Research as a whole subject of study, Focusing on another more personal subject that is about me leading up to where i am now. - The reasons will become apparent at the end.
I was very late in my speech development and didn’t start to talk to what would be an acceptable degree until I was 5 going onto 6 years old, with the help from speech therapy and my family I was able to overcome this but left with a slight lisp.
From not speaking it left me as a very quiet person, keep to myself and avoid big conversations especially with new people, prefer to hear and analyse the conversation between others, than be a big part of it.
Unfortunately my mum was blinded by love who soon became my step father ‘Jerry’ And we moved into his house in Gosport, and he unknown to me (my 5 year older brother was aware) use to beat my mum up as ive now been told very regularly, After the first year, me and my brother started to get the same treatment from him.
My brother got the most psychical abuse and I had the most mental abuse but we both had a mix of both types for the following 2 years. (im not going into specifics because that is not the purpose of this post)
After the 3 years my mum and her friend helped us all escape from him and find a new address and for about 3 or 4 months we had a normal life (my mum once we left found out everything that had happened to us and we did about her, we were all too scared to get the police involved) until 1 evening jerry broke into our house at exactly 1.45AM (I saw the clock change when a window smashed) his aim of that evening was to kill the 3 of us.
He stabbed my mum multiple times with broken glass and a kitchen knife, he smashed and broke kitchen chairs on her, he raped her and tried to choke her – my mum whilst being choked screamed for my brother to take me out of the house and get someone to call the police, as I was being pulled down the stairs by my brother we saw him with a bloody knife in his hand and choking my mum with the other hand and he screamed at us to get back up stairs ‘Get up before I kill all 3 of you’ and I tried to run up stairs and my mum said ‘go’ and my brother pulled me out , and the neighbours at this stage were outside our door and took us in theirs as told us the police are already on their way
and they arrested him and he got sent to prison for everything over the 3 years to us all and what happened that night.
After this I became a mute even to my close family very shut off in communicating with people. It only really started to change when I was heading into my teenage years again lots of speech therapy was required in order to start speaking and again left with a slight lisp.
My issues as a teenager were caused by my childhood and it deeply affected me, it frustrated me why I cant contribute in a social situation well and generally don’t enjoy it, I would much rather have a big email discussion about something of interest.
Luckily over the years ive somehow managed to find some friends who are not offended by my unsociable mannerisms, throughout my teenage years I was a music producer and that was all I would do everyday all day and night.
Work was often hard to fit into the work environment because of not being sociable although observations and report writing was at a good level, but sometimes I do get words a little mixed up and don’t structure my sentences to an acceptable degree to some, But there is someone on twitter named ‘Bob Faul’ who is actually ‘Barry’ from Hauntings of England who I have given some might say a negative review about in one of my observational posts, He has said ridiculous things like ‘No Qualifications’ but unknown to all, ive worked as a QA Inspector for Airbus.
Getting to the Point
It is safe to say I have had a lot of issues with speech and the wording, as mentioned above this something that ‘Trolls’ have outlined, They seem to think because I have shared my opinion about something that is not positive regarding their research, that gives rights to make fun of something that I cannot help, I don’t like to blame but my life from a young age made me this way and there will be typos unfortunately, Bob/Barry has made fun of the way I speak before ‘Do You Really Sound Like That lol’ - Well now you know why I do (the complete story).
The primary purpose of this all is to give all of the real ‘Idiots’/’Posers’ who are making fun of me (not due to the standard of research but me personally) they now have all the correct information to write about – All the ammo needed.
Attempted insults just because I have different standards of ‘Paranormal Research’ and viewpoint to what lots of teams are posting weekly as Paranormal, The only way they can respond is to make fun of someone who blatant medical conditions, But they are not answering the questions of their failure.
In my teenage years I learnt to produce music (as earlier explained), not being social I didn’t want to learn in a music course, so I taught myself how to produce using Cubase & Reason.
I was producing for just over 10 years releasing tunes on various labels and owned my own label, Which had 3 top selling albums, compilation of other producers including my own tunes, The genre was Dubstep but when that scene became mainstream I stopped producing and closed down my label.
When I first started investigating the Paranormal, It seemed like the perfect interest to be involved in, Due to my experience in music production and my time as a QA Technician (Aerospace), I was able to combine the 2 into a new shared interested.
Even with the issues that I have ive still managed to learn and help educate others with my knowledge and writing, I conduct a lot of research on a weekly basis on various Paranormal subjects and write my own reports and theories on the paranormal, sometimes observations of the Paranormal community – with the issues noted, Writing is my voice.
This is the way I am and who I am, I like to observe, Analyse and write a collection of what I have learnt, hopefully information that other people will be able to learn something from as I do with theirs.
I unintentionally upset many intensive people on twitter, from delivering a “Negative Review” which they take extremely personally, and it is those who use my issues against me.
I’ve never felt the need to explain myself to any of these very sad individuals but my partner (Kelly) was upset seeing some of the things said to about my issues, without knowing about the experiences I have been through.
It was Kelly’s idea for me to write this post, who said ‘Stop wasting your time talking when they are not interested in listening, write about it so they have all the ammo they need – im sure they will feel very big’.
< do have to say its good to get some of my life of my chest it’s been held in for a very long time, I do feel better for it – thank you kelly :-) >